Rolling in the deep....

Tonight I had some good girl time with my friend/coworker, April.. We like to go to Miss Kitty's on Thursday's for their dance lessons. Tonight, though, we didn't do much dancing. We just talked over a drink, which was MUCH needed. On both ends. She's a really good friend and I'm glad I have her in my life. She's easy to talk to and fun to be with.. I think I'm really starting to get out there and figure out who my friends really are...and be more social.

There is a big song out right now by an artist (who is amazing) Adele...called "Rolling in the Deep". I used to hate this song. The radio stations played it over and over and I just could not stand listening to it..... until the night I heard her perform it live on the Grammy's. I actually listened to the words to this song...and it's my life. It's about a girl that gets played. She gave her all to this guy and all her love, and he just played her... I'm constantly in that position...

I'm so scared to trust a guy again. Right now, I've been back in the online dating world...chatting with 4 or 5 different guys..not really caring too much if the do or don't keep the conversations going... because I'm not looking for something serious... not looking for anything more than friends and having fun... That's another thing... since when did wanting to "have fun" start to me "I want to jump into bed with you and have sex immediately"?? That's seems to be what ALL guys are looking for... At least Zach was decent enough never to pressure me or push the situation... Can't there be more guys like that? Apparently guys don't have morals...and I feel like they think girls shouldn't either... We should just want to have sex with any guy... It's sad...to be honest..

It's hard to still find good in people these days...