Last weekend was St. Patrick's Day weekend.. never celebrated it before... I went down to Maryville, Missouri to visit my friend Julie.. and had a blast. I haven't had that much carefree fun in... so, so long... My mind was so clear and soooo not in Iowa. I can't even describe the feeling. I probably got way too drunk... but I don't care. Made out with guys... and who knows what else.. It was so fun!
Coming back was not so great... It's like as soon as I crossed the boarder...all the shit in my life came back. I want to go away and never come back.. can I please?? They are in "love".. really? You have to post that shit? She's so fucking ugly... I hate her... I hate this all. I have guys coming out of the woodwork who are interested in my and I could care less.. I'm not interested in anything... I don't want to be with anyone... I. Don't. Care. I'm not really liking the person I've been really... not really caring about anything... drinking more than I should... I just don't know what to do.
I am 11 days away from my vacation.. 11 days away from freedom... from getting out of this hell hole.. I cannot wait to get out of here for more than just a few days.... to see the ocean... to relax... to melt away all this crap... I can't wait to just forget... I hope I can forget...
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