Reaching Out

Last night my ex (whom I still have feelings for as I've discussed before) called me. We don't talk too often or anything...but it's always nice to hear from him, and unfortunately he's the one I want to talk to when I've had a bad day, something good has happened, I have big news, etc.... He has a habit of sharing music with me. When I used to live in Cedar Falls and we would hang out regularly he would sit on Youtube and play me music. He has very good taste. Well when he called last night he wanted me to listen to a song and then call him back. These are the lyrics....

Lately, I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me
Like I'm reaching out for you?

One way conversations
Going on inside my head
Everybody has a secret world
Where too much is unsaid

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
(Oooh, oooh, oooh) are you reaching out for me
Like I'm reaching out for you?

Give me your hand
One touch is all that it takes 
Ain't it funny how just one touch
Can make up for all of our mistakes 

Lately, I've been hard to reach
I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone

Are you calling me?
Are you trying to get through?
Are you reaching out for me
Like I'm reaching out for you?

When I called him back after listening to the song, (which I was very confused by) he would ask me if I listened to the lyrics...really listened. I said "yes" and he goes "I really like the lyrics". This has made me so super confused you wouldn't even believe. I don't understand why he sends these signals. He's said he wasn't right for me in the past....but I still think there's a part of him that still wants me. I wish he would give me another chance... And when he does things like this...when the words to this song send soooo many messages.... I would really love it if he could tell me how he feels. Does he want me?

My life has been nothing but a confused mess lately... I have no idea what to do. I'm lost. I'm alone. I'm confused. I'm hurt. I'm sad. I'm a whole bunch of things.