Lately I've been thinking about friends. Who's really my friend? As a junior in high school I had THE best friend. Her name was Sarah. We knew each other so well and had so much fun together. Within the past year her and I have lost touch. I'm not really sure what happened...we just stopped talking. I miss her so much. I have very few friends in Des Moines after moving back...and the friends I do have are great, they just aren't my best friend.
I hate reading on Facebook about everyone hanging out with their "BFF" or hearing about it....heck I hate seeing those 2-4 girls together at the mall or the restaurant that you just know are joined at the hip and love each other no matter what.
Sarah and I always talked about how we would be friends forever. It just makes me stop and think now. Can people really be friends their whole life? My childhood friends are still people I would talk to and possibly hang out with, but by no means would I call them good friends anymore. Some of my high school friends I still consider to be good friends, but it's just not the same anymore. This goes back to when my high school boyfriend broke up with me and told me he "just doesn't love me anymore". This has all put a damper on how I view life and love. Can love last forever? Whether it be the love between best friends or the romantic love you feel for someone.....does it last?
I'm scared of letting people in...I'm scared of getting close to someone. Scared of loving someone.
I miss my best friend....
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