I am not getting much better at keeping up with this blog. I always have way too much on my mind, I don't even know where to start. Lately I've found it really hard to put into words what/how I'm feeling. This past weekend I had an encounter with the past...a past that I miss everyday.
I still have feelings for an ex-boyfriend/good friend. I have no idea what it is about him, but I can't seem to rid myself of him. He's always in the back of my mind....and stuck in my heart. He can be a complete ass sometimes, but there's something about the way he looks at me. He acts so differently with me. I can't explain it. Usually with girls he likes/dates/whatever he wants sex and doesn't always seem to really care about them as a person. With me, we never had sex. He never pushed it too much. He kept coming around even though there wouldn't be sex. He tells me he cares and will hold me close... There's just something safe about being in his arms. He is truly one of the few people anymore who actually get me. I slept right up close to him the other night...and he kissed the top of my head.... I wish he would just say what he's thinking. He's so closed off about his feelings. I really wish I knew because I still think we would be good together......
"If two people are meant to be together...eventually they'll find their way back."
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