Lately I've realized how "square" I am... I've the same hair color and cut ever since I can remember, I always wear pants and flats, I always dress super conservative, I never go out and do anything crazy....
This is about to change. I want to live life and enjoy it the best I can. I may not know what I want in most areas of my life.... but I know that I don't want to have any regrets. I'm gonna try and put myself out there and not hold back. If I know how I'm feeling about something I'm going to make sure it's known. I don't want to look back on these years (which are supposed to be the best ones....) and be disappointed in myself.
Some day soon...or in the up and coming weeks I think I may change up my hair style, and maybe even the color. I'm going to (on my limited budget) enhance my wardrobe. Maybe even get that tattoo I've been wanting. :)
I also just want to work on how I'm living my life. Volunteering with Habitat had made me realize I could be doing so much with my life and giving back in so many ways. I really do have a lot to offer and the world needs people who are willing to give. I need to stop being so selfish. Yes most times when I look at my life I hate it and wish practically everything in it was different, but I'm lucky. I have a solid job that pays well, a really nice apartment, a good car, loving friends and family.... and not everyone does.
I think I'm done letting my mind wonder for the night....at least with my fingers at the keyboard.
I put myself out there tonight, and haven't gotten a response. Hopefully I will soon. If I don't, at least I won't regret not doing it. :)
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